hello, this is my blog as you can see, but ill introduce myself here.
"you can call me syn or synovial, others call me dan."
i am typically seen as masculine and i greatly prefer he/him pronouns but any will do.
i am a student who is too absorbed in his art for his own good and i must learn different forms of art to satisfy hungry appetite--an art junkie if you will.
im very into nine inch nails, anatomy, music, and going to the theaters. i love making friends and to learn about my interests.
Date: 10/28/2025
Mood: fine
if i knew more about coding , this site wouldve been complete.
im not too sure how go go about this..
hmm
i know coding is probably way easier than it looks, but for some reason i get so exhausted thinking about it, well, i do that a lot, even outside of coding..so no big feat. anyway. im gonna use this site to help me learn how to code. i feel embarassed seeing all this super high graphic sites and mine is just..there. it doesnt make it any better with my declining eye-site (get it?) im currently working on getting some glasses for that. eventually, maybe.
im sure ill complete this site and make it something i imagine. i wanna make a blog for my thoughts, a simple diary of my sick, twisted, slimy, wicked, wretched, life. okay, maybe im overreacting, but theres nothing you can do! its my site. hahahaha....
perhaps writing a blog is more lonely than i thought (for a person like me, i mean)
Date: 10/29/2025
Mood: productive
[entry]
hello 6520x!
id like to learn how to code some more today and create a proper homepage for this website thats much more eyepleasing thn this shotty blog. im not used to html coding and i wish there was a website i could use to test my coding, but im not sure how to create a new site on here to test that. id like to make a nice site people like to look at but even just creating this stupid blog made me so exhausted...ugh.
well, thats not exactly why i made this entry anyways.
i wanna make a site mascot! i think that would make this website more pleasing to look at. maybe. id i knew how to add a boc for submissions i would so i could see what anyone would like...oh well!
Date: 10/29/2025
Mood: productive
[entry]
hello again 6520x!
ive came up with a few rather simple designs for my mascot. i think theyre cute! theyre just little gray blobs but i think the charm of them being simple is just what i need... i will revisit them soon enough
maybe i need to make them more complicated! i think theyre cute as is but if would be cool to have a website staple.
Date: 10/30/2025
Mood: content
[entry]
hello again
ive been working pretty hard on this site. its still simple...i know.
i made a 404 page and a "stuff" page that you can see here.
i think im going crazy i cant stop hearing blurred lines and i wanna dance....whatever
yeah this blog is a bad one...sorry man, i cant come up with something right now so heres a nin video
Date: 10/30/2025
Mood: content
[entry]
hello again...again
id like to use this blog for personl stuff too, not just some stupid website log.
i looked for a more fitting profile picture because ive been seeing these little goat plushies everywhere and i adore them. heres a link to their page. theyre a litttle out of my budget...but theyre still suoer cute! i hope to own one one day...hopefully.
well, thats all. ill probably make another blog later so stay tuned, hahahahaa....
Date: 10/31/2025
Mood: dissociated, disturbed
[entry]
its halloween! how exciting.
i actually dressed up..but i dont feel that well, i feel sortve out of place
i dont feel real again. this has been happening for nearly a month and i have no clue why ive been dissociating so much, maybebecause december is coming? i hate december. it ruins me everytime it comes around and i cant say im ready for that at all. i hate feeling horrible and i guess subconciously i can feel the dread from past decembers.i wish i couldnt. i dissociate way more than i used to, even though it was regular for me a few years ago it was never this bad.
id like for this feeling to go away. im tired for being in pain even if it isnt physical. well... often ehrn i dissociate it rakes up memories i dont remember and sometimes ill get auditory hallucinations. ill be able to smell these memories, see them, hear them. its never enjoyable. its the stench of neglect. its disgusting.
i am honestly very stressed because of it. my dissoiction and stuff. it makes it harrd to be productive. sometimes i can make the sounds go away with music but i cant right now. i feel like im going crazy. i keep smelling metal. wet metal.
nevermind, i dont wanna talk about it anymore.
Date: 10/31/2025
Mood: dissociated, flustered {good}
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i feel so embarassed.
ive been planning on going to school in costume since i cannot go trick or treating this year. i am edward scissorhands.
because i didnt have time to order the hands, i made them. theyre pretty bad actually, but everyone adores them! i keep being called pretty today because of it too. im not wearing my usual baggy clothing, actually,...im wearing something quite fitted on my top. and someome even complimented by body because of it. i could die.
my school hosted a costume contest too, i won. i actually won something. it feels so good to win at my craft even if its not that good, people still liked it enough to vote me, and thats what makes me feel happy.
